Kenduri Ala2 Gath

Tadi attend wedding Nana kat Dewan Tarom, JB. Thanx kat Ikeen sbb kasi tumpang. Balik this time tak drive, so ala2 patah kaki sikit la. Hoho. As expected, ramai jugak ex-schoolmate yang datang tadi. Dah macam gathering bebudak SSI pulak. Awesome.

Hmm, perantin baru pun sangat comel. Congrats to Nana & Fendy! :)

PS: Ikeen, suka new haircut tuh. Nak tiru bleh? Ahaks.

Alternately

Actually, there's so many things came across my mind lately. But, most of those thingy just left unsaid. It was like, it just come and go. Alternately. Tears and laughter. Happy and moody. Love and hate. Am I trying sooo hard to forget things? Or, maybe, I just found 'me'?

Arghh, I feel terrible, too. Whoa, now I'm confused.


PS: I was cruel to say things like "I hate you" and I am never cruel. I have no excuse for my words no matter what had happened. So, I am very sorry...

A birthday note

I really wanted to say these to someone.

"Masa kita jatuh, kadang2 kita tercari2 tangan tempat untuk kita berpaut, tanpa kita sedar tangan itu selalu mendekat. Dan, masa kita hebat berlari, kadang2 kita terlupa tangan yang sama masih dekat untuk melihat kita berjaya sampai ke garisan penamat, walaupun hanya dengan bertepuk sorak..."

Kita hanyalah manusia biasa yang sinonim dengan kesilapan dan kealpaan. Cerita kita, hanya kita yang tahu. Tapi, kenapa mereka yang berteriak lantang?

Anyway, Happy Birthday!

Buku oh buku...

Berthinking jugak nih, kenapa facebook tetiba jadi hot? Adakah kerana friendster boring? Atau, myspace dah tak besh? Adakah?

Dah agak lama jugak sign up facebook tu.. tapi macam malas nak login selalu. Agak penatlah nak melayan applications yang sangat banyak tu. Tak faham motif application tu pun ya jugak. Buta IT lah katakan. Haha.

So, tadi masa agak kelebihan. Err, maksudnya, ada masa yang kalau tak digunakan akan terbuang begitu saja. Jadi masa itu telah mengambil kesempatan untuk login facebook yang dah bersawang tu. Ayat pun dah weng (facebook punya pasal lah ni!)...

Tapi keadaan masih sama, tengok jer applications n request yang banyak tu, terus rasa nak logout. Haha. Nampak sangat malas. Applications tu memang fun2, cute2. But, I'm sick of that thingy lah... banyak sangat... heleppp... hellepp...

Yep, senang citer logout jer. Pening pulak nak tengok satu2. Tak tahu lah bila pulak nak login balik pasni. Konfem bertahun. Heh.

Morning Glory

Pagi tadi masa nak pegi keje, terperasan satu keta parking just opposite my car. Hmm, ada sesuatu lah. It's not the car, but the number. Terus grab camera. And, I smile a lot since then... :)

Well, the number has its own story. An unforgettable story.

I did silly things...

Yep. Sometimes. Macam last two days. Follow a car semata2 sebab nak tengok siapa perempuan yang duduk sebelah driver tu. Pastu bila the driver perasan, that car macam lost direction. Tak sure nak pergi mana yer, cik abang? Cilok la, tak kesah. Heks. Loser.

Gosh, watever it is, that was silly. Tanak buat lagi. Serius, tanak buat lagi.



Note: Happy Birthday to my dearest buddy, Ikeen! Friends for life. Luv ya!

That's not my name...

Pernah dengar lagu 'That's Not My Name' by The Ting Tings? Ahaks, yep, that song! Awesome kan... hehe... tapi lagu tu actually tak ada kena mengena sangat dengan entry nih... muahahaha..

Nama. Yep, nak cerita sikit pasal nama. Berapa banyak nama yang korang ada sejak keluar melihat keindahan dunia fana nih? Hmm... maksudnya, nama mungkin satu tapi yang nih including nama yang orang lain suka2 panggil korang. Suka2 maksudnya nama yang kadang2 empunya diri sendiri tak brapa nak suka dipanggil dengan nama tu. Atau maksudnya, ala2 nama manja. Atau maksudnya, nama panggilan iaitu nickname cakap omputihnya. Err, brapa banyak punya maksud daa... Heh.

Tapi tak semua nama tu korang tak suka... kan? Nama yang ada makna yang baik takkan tak suka kot? Kan? Kan? Actually nama yang maknanya baik2 tu la yang kita selalu harapkan orang lain akan gunakan untuk panggil kita. Betul tak?

Kalau perasan, nama budak2 sekarang nih canggih2. Nama nak yang hebat2 jer. Cehh... macam jeles jer bunyinya eks. Hehe. Tapi, tak dinafikan ada jugak nama kengkawan yang ala2 sebaya yang besh2 jugak. Terfikir jugak, manalah parents dorang dapat idea.

Totally differ from my name. Short and sounds classic to me. Actually not classic la, nama common orang dulu2 la kot. Nama kampung. Haha. But, I do like my name. Yep, so much! My real name is FA-DZI-LAH. Which is, orang selalu pronounce as FAD-ZI-LAH. Which is, tak brapa besh la pronounciation tu. So girlish and sounds gedik kan? Heh. Plus, bila salah sebut, makna pun dah lain. Tu yang rasa tak menge-besh-kan tu.

Alkisahnya, nama yang indah nih (cehh.. perasan!) arwah Atuk Abah yang bagi. Masa nak register tu, arwah tulis nama tu dalam jawi. Which is, suppose dalam rumi spelling dia - FADHILAH. Kalau sebutan dia betul, nama tu membawa makna yang cukup indah - kelebihan. Kan cantik tu. Tapi maybe orang tu tak tahu the exact spelling, so dia hentam sajerr. Jadi, makna dia pun dah lari tune. Heh, apa2 jer lah...

Tapi... dari satu nama yang pendek tu, dapat macam2 nama yang lain pulak. Ada yang suka and ada yang tak brapa nak suka. Yang tak suka langsung pun ada. Tak kesah la, janji roxx kan. Antara nama2 tu termasuklah;

1. Fad-zi-lah (nama penuh tu... sumtimes rimas bila orang pronounce camnih)
2. Dilla (nickname yang biasa guna kat memana)
3. Kak Ngah (family and cousins kdg2 dorang guna nama nih... kakak2 sangat!)
4. Kak Ngah Kecik (dalam family besar ada few Kak Ngah and I'm the smallest *wink*)
5. Illa (tak suka if orang panggil nama nih, mcm gedik jer)
6. Zilla (tak suka jugak, gedik sangat)
7. Faz (tak brapa suka, tapi ala2 DJ Fuzz pulak.. haha)
8. Fazi (ada gak orang panggil dgn nama nih, kreatif betul dorang nih)
9. Cik Dil (kat sekolah dengan gank yg close sumtimes guna yang nih)
10. Ninja-D (ID anonymous yang sengaja direka so that orang tak kenal)
11. Fadillah (ada gak yang tak sure spelling)
12. Fazdilah (sekali lagi kes konfius dengan spelling)
13. Adilatul Munna (ni bebudak kat ITM dulu saja tiru nama sorang lecturer - Aliyatul Munna)
14. Ceegu (kelakar seh, close frens masa diploma jer yang panggil dengan nama nih sbb jadi cikgu dorang utk statistic - i lurve numbers!)
15. Sugus (member ITM yang bagi nama nih - suka!)
16. DJ Dilla (nih kalau member2 kat radio panggil)
17. Wardilla (tak sure either dorang tiru nama Wardina or Kak Warda - fafau la nih!)
18. Dill Kya Kare (bebudak opis mmg sengaja membollywoodkan namaku!)
19. Don (err... yang nih tak tahu sapa yang start, yang pasti budak opis lagi!)
20. Dill (nama yang comfortable and selalu guna sekarang nih)
21. Fadilla (yang ni special sikit sbb ada sorang jer yang guna *wink*)
22. Adik (yang nih lagi tak faham, napa mamat tu panggil camtu? bila pulak jadi adik dia nih?)
23. D (erk, lately ada yg start balik panggil dengan nama nih, which is macam tak berapa nak suka, heh!)

Hah, tu yang cross my mind sekarang nih la. Nanti kalau ada lagi, kasi update list nih later. Ey, nametag masa secondary pun masih simpan taw. Ahaks.

Gadis Melayu?

Rasa kelakar pulak bila ingat balik. Tapi dalam kelakar2 seram tu actually benda ni menyedarkan sikit dari terus tidur lena la kot. Cenggini ceritanya. Tengah hari tadi masa kat toilet nak mensucikan diri, seperti biasa before bertemu KEKASIH hati kan. Tetiba ada suatu suara tegur dari belakang. Rupanya seorang mak cik yang buat cleaning servis kat ofis nih ada kat situ jugak. Selalu panggil dia 'Cik Ju' jer. Mak cik nih memang baik sangat and peramah jugak. Maybe umur Cik Ju ni ala2 umur mama kot.


Cik Ju: Hmm, kenapa tak masuk gadis melayu?
Me: Huh? (berenti cuci muka kejap) Apa dia Cik Ju? (tak dapat tangkap, blur)
Cik Ju: Alaa... gadis melayu yang kat TV9 tu...
Me: Owh... yang tu ker? Tak layak la Cik Ju... (sambil gelak2 blur, heh)
Cik Ju: Acik tgk Dilla ada ciri2 gadis melayu la... (dia tepuk2 manja bahu ku ini...)
Me: Hahaha... audition dah lepas la pulak... (gelak and try play safe sbb tak tau nak ckp apa)
Cik Ju: Nanti kalau ada lagi, cuba la...
Me: Okies... terima kasih Cik Ju... (sengih sambil tgk Cik Ju kuar dari toilet)


Lepas abis solat, apa yang Cik Ju cakap tu still teringat2 kat kepala. Harap2 solat tadi tu diterima la hendaknya. Amin. Bukan teringat nak masuk benda alah tu ke hapa. Tapi, tersedar lebih lagi. Persoalannya, layak ker Cik Dilla nih jadi gadis melayu? Terlalu banyak kekurangan. Dan yang lebih teruk lagi, tak berusaha pun nak perbaiki kekurangan tu.

Pandai masak ker? Jahit baju? Mengaji? Alahai... cane la Cik Dilla nak compete dengan dorang yang hebat2 tu?

Maka, tersedarlah Cik Dilla dari terus dibuai lena oleh mimpi2 indahnya... Terima kasih, wahai Cik Ju! :)

Menunggu datang gelap...

Aku terima kekalahanku. Aku salutkan kemenanganmu.

DJ Fuzz

DJ Fuzz, I'm your biggest fan!

Hey. It's kinda weird-strange-freaky confession I guess. I kept on repeating his name again and again while I'm alone, lately. Haha. And, rasa macam tak besh jer if terlepas his set of the mixshow. Then, dalam kepala nih selalu fikir, siapalah mamat yang cool nih?

His name is DJ FUZZ. Ala, if korang selalu dengar Club Hitz kat Hitz.fm sure pernah dengar nama dia nih. I dun have any idea macam mana dia nih. But, I have feelings that he must be 'one of a kind' yang cool2 jer and music genius. Kan? His selection of songs memang besh2. Whoa... selalu up2 dia nih taw. Padahal, tak kenal pun. Haha.

Gosh, cant believe I wrote this on my blog. Haha. Aduyaii... crush do happens rite? But this one is different. It's more like fan-DJ kinda stuff la kot.

Yep, I fell in lurve with the DJ.



Note: If anyone of u have any info bout this fella, purleaassee kindly forward it to me, kay! TQ :)

Kecik VS Besar

Semalam, balik keje relax2 sambil buat yoga on bed. Spontan jer tangan capai Chester comel. Pastu tak sedar terus kish2 teddy comel tu. Then, amik pulak 'Prefect'. Terus hug2 si besar tuh. Tak perasan, agaknya macam tulah rutin hari2 bila landing2 kat katil. Kot? Dah jadi habit. Semalam baru terperasan. Hmm, macam kanak2 ribena pulak kan.

Tapi kan, rasa tak besh taw if sehari tak dapat hug si kecik and si besar tuh. Sayang sangat kat dua2 teddies nih. Dua2 hadiah orang bagi. Ada lagi satu teddy, Shinoda. Tapi tinggal kat JB. Shinoda besar sikit compared to 'Prefect'. Jangan tak caya, dah dekat 7 years age Lil' Chester tu taw. 'Prefect' tu pulak 4 years. And Shinoda, about 6 years.

Actually, ada few lagi teddies yang lain. Tapi, those 3 yang special sikit. Rasa macam tak sah if tido tak hug Lil' Chester. If terjaga tiba2 pun, sure cari si kecik tu dulu. Yang besar tu pulak selalu jadi mangsa tempat lepas geram. Selalu kena pijak2 kalau tgh layan stres. Haha. Tapi masa nak pijak tu, tukar nama dulu. Sebutlah nama sesapa yang patut kena pijak. Puas hati. Hehe. Kesian si besar.

Hmm... dah age macam nih pun still simpan teddy bear. Kelakar. Tapi, tak kesah la. Lagipun, sayang sebab orang hadiahkan. Kita kena appreciate pemberian orang. Agak2 orang lain pun macam tu jugak ker eh? Mesti ada kot. Or maybe ada yang still simpan bantal busyukk ker, kan? Ahaks! :)

Huggable! :)

Nota: Kadang2 ada benda yang kita rasa biasa2 jer, tapi tanpa kita sedar sebenarnya benda tu penting jugak.

Kusut Tahap Gaban

Serabut. Tensi. Emosi. Kusut. Sedih. Geram. Sakit. Tak tahu mana satu. Paling sure, jiwa kacau. Tahap gaban. Hati mati, lagi.

So now...

Remember everything. Forgive nothing.

OR

Remember nothing. Forgive everything.


Which one do I prefer then? Hmm, that's f**king hard!

Age Issues?!

Sabtu lepas ada chit chat dengan sorang kawan yang dah lama tak melepakkan diri together2. Alkisahnya, kitorang nih borak2 thru IM. Actually dah lama jugak tak gossip2 online dengan my fren nih. Out of sudden, tak hengat la macam mana boleh terkuar cerita pasal kahwin2 nih. Actually, issue tu tak berapa diextendkan pun. Kejap jer kitorang cerita pasal benda tu. Cuma, rasa macam terfikir2 sendiri. Kebetulan pulak, topik tu ada jugak terdengar2 (plus terkomen2) masa berborak2 dengan kawan2 yang lain.

Chit chat kitorang malam tu lebih kurang macam ni la. Tak hengat sangat. Ni kira isi2 penting jer (yang related dengan ini cerita jer eh).



Him: aritu gi wedding member
Him: dia baru 23 wife dia 29
Him: pehhh
Me: love is love
Me: age doesnt matter
Him: cehh
Him: tapiii...
Me: tapi apa?
Him: xde pape la



Tak tahulah kenapa tetiba jawab selamba macam tu. Nak kata setuju, tak jugak. Lepas tu dia tukar cerita lain pulak. Malas la nak tanya lebih2 kan. So, issue sekarang nih --> perempuan bercinta or berkahwin dengan someone yang jauh lebih muda. Kenapa ek? Pelik sangat ker?

Hmm, besh jugak issue nih. Sebab, dah banyak kisah benar yang sewaktu dengannya di mana2. Macam trend pulak. Maknanya, ramai yang dah boleh accept issue nih. Tapi mungkin jugak masih dianggap tak patut bagi sesetengah yang lain. Like me, maybe?? Interested nak tahu pasal benda ni tak semestinya menyokong, kan? :)

Jadi, pada lewat malam yang sama, time tengah syok surf internet, kebetulan terbaca satu artikel kat Yahoo! Hmm, kebetulan la pulak kan. Memang artikel tu related, kira sesuai jugaklah. Yang tak berapa menge-besh-kan sebab artikel ni more to mat & minah saleh punya situation. Memang la kan, writer dia pun minah saleh. Jadi, nak diingatkan kat sini, mana2 point yang rasa2 negatif tu janganlah sesekali ditiru yer. Tapi yang mana positif tu apa salahnya kalau dijadikan rujukan. Setuju? Rasanya interesting jugaklah if share kat sini. Kalau agak2 tak faham tu, rerajinlah refer kamus yer! So, thanks to Yahoo! Articles.


What's Behind the Trend of Women Dating Younger Men?

Exploring the modern coupling phenomenon
by Tina B. Tessina, Ph.D. Special to Special to Yahoo! Personals

There appears to be a trend of older women dating younger men, notably illustrated by celebrity couples including Demi Moore and Aston Kutcher, Halle Berry and Gabriel Aubry, and the most recent fling between 48-year-old Linda Hogan and 19-year-old Charlie Hill. According to a study of 50,000 women daters over 30, conducted by an online dating site in 2007, more than one-third of the subjects showed interest in men at least 5 years younger. And in 2003, an AARP survey revealed 34 percent of 3,500 women (between ages 40 and 69) dated men who are 10 or more years younger than themselves. This trend appears to be shocking to some people, but I don't find it so unusual.

Socially, there's a role reversal of sorts going on, women are more powerful now than ever before and may want men who are younger, and perhaps, more flexible; men who can handle it if the woman's career and lifestyle takes priority over their own. Media portrayals in "Sex and the City" (like movie characters Smith Jerrod and Samantha Jones) and "Desperate Housewives" are also showing women that dates don't have to be older. Women who have high-powered careers -- or a well-developed self-image -- are exercising more choice. Women who have been divorced and are established single moms may enjoy having a playmate, someone to have fun with; who doesn't try to control her.


Can these older woman/younger man relationships last?

In my counseling office, I have seen many relationships succeed with this kind of older woman/younger man scenario. The media focuses on the age difference, but what really makes or breaks the relationship is how well the couple can form a partnership that works.

Age difference is an adolescent worry: When you're a teenager, an age difference of even two or three years makes a vast difference in your experience and your outlook on life. Such a difference can interfere with communication, life goals, outlook, and relationship experience. In addition, for the young, the social reaction to such a relationship is often negative. If one partner is underage, a sexual relationship is even against the law.

But, as you get older, life experience and emotional growth help to equalize your relationship skills and resources. A 10-year or more difference in your ages makes little difference in how well you can conduct your relationship.

Don't focus on an arbitrary numbers difference in your ages. If you are getting along, you have good communication and problem solving, and you love each other, that's a precious thing, and far more important than any age difference could be. If other people have a problem with it, let it be their problem.

Whether or not a relationship is healthy is not determined by age differences, but by the interaction between the partners. A 10-year difference is not too difficult to bridge, but a 20-year differences or more in age can lead to some difficulties as the partners get older. For example, the younger partner may mature and reconsider his or her choices, or an older partner may confront aging problems much sooner. But, as long as both parties are adult, and the couple has talked about their age difference and the future possibilities, I don't make judgments about their respective ages.


Dealing with the generation gap

There are healthy and unhealthy reasons to date someone of a different generation. One inappropriate motivation for dating a younger person is fear of aging on the older person's part. A younger partner isn't going to reverse the aging process or protect you from old age. Obviously, a man or woman who dates someone as young as his or her children is going to run into some social opposition, but the differences that can cause the biggest problems within the couple's relationship are differing maturity levels.

As more and more women choose younger partners for relationships, the question arises: Are women in their late 30s and early 40s likely to be successful with partners who are 10 to 15 years younger than themselves?

Success in these relationships depends on what the motivations of both people are. Some older people feel younger at heart than their contemporaries and like to date people who are as active as they are. Chronological age doesn't always reflect either physical capability or emotional maturity. Sometimes an age difference creates a mentoring relationship the older person advises the younger one on life or career. This can backfire if and when the younger person decides he or she has learned enough, and wants to move on.

If you're asking: "Is it OK for me to have a partner who is much older or younger than I am?" You'll do better off if you forget about your ages and concentrate on whether the relationship works for both of you, or not. What really makes a romantic relationship succeed is the emotional connection.


Tina B. Tessina, Ph.D., of HYPERLINK "http://www.tinatessina.com" www.tinatessina.com is a licensed psychotherapist in private practice in Long Beach, Calif. since 1978 and author of 13 books in 14 languages, including "The Unofficial Guide to Dating Again". She has two new books from Adams Press in 2008: "Money, Sex and Kids: Stop Fighting About the Three Things That Can Ruin Your Marriage" and "The Commuter Marriage". She publishes the "Happiness Tips from Tina" e-mail newsletter, and the "Dr. Romance" Blog. She has written and been interviewed for many national publications, including Cosmopolitan, Maxim, and TimeOnline.com. Online, she's known as "The Dating Doctor" and "Doctor Romance" and is a Redbook Love Network expert as well as for Yahoo! Personals.



So, OK ke KO ni ek? But, personally, the issue is still at 30:70. Hmm, you definitely get the meaning aite? Tapi tak tahulah if ada yang berjaya mengubah persepsiku ini... :)




Nota: Isu di atas dikongsi bukan atas maksud peribadi untuk mengelirukan atau menyalahertikan situasi cintan cintun (cehh, ayat tak hengat!) mana2 individu sama ada yang hidup ataupun yang telah kembali kepada-NYA. Terima kasih.

Sangap...

Sungguh sangap rasanya arini. Konon2 acara wajib arini ialah kemas rumah sampai pitam. Tapi memandangkan cuaca agak sejuk2 manja, kejap2 besh gak layan yoga on bed. Haha. Pastu kejap2 layan skype. Bosannnnn seh.

Nasib esok ada open house. Hmm... I can smell food now... lapar... lapar... food... spaghetti... gravies... whoa... mintak2 la esok my dear Kak Gee masak spaghetti dia yg lazat tu... yummy-licious! Pastu on monday pulak, mintak2 la kat open house my dear Kak Ruby ada sate yg mcm previous year tu... sungguh melazatkan! :)

And hopefully, perut nih tak buat hal yg pelik2 sudahhh. Owh, lupa. Untuk kengkawan yg raya upcoming monday nih, Happy Diwali!



ps: Bila Encik Ryuki nak balik nih? Dah masuk raya lain dah ni... heh!

Tensi

Boleh tahan penat ni. Tapi... kenapa takleh tido nih? Hohoho, tensi lah!

Lari...

Heh. Kenapa pulak nak lari2 nih? Macam suspen jer. Ala, kan dah cakap aritu. Nak lari jauh2. Tapi jauh mana? Bulan boleh ker? Tak dapat sampai bulan pun takpe, asalkan jauh. Sandakan pun jauh gak, kan? Kan?

Lari2. Jauh2. Macam lagu We The Kings tu...


Lace up your shoes
Here's how we do

Run baby run
Don't ever look back
They'll tear us apart
if you give them the chance
Don't sell your heart
Don't say we're not meant to be

Run baby run
Forever will be
You and me

(Song: Check Yes Juliet by We The Kings)



Note: This song is specially dedicated to Mr. Ryuki Izumi. He's currently out of town busy with his work. Huhu. Hope he'll be back soon! Just can't wait... :)

Masa dah time...

Hmm... rasa macam kejap jer cuti, kan? Cehh... dah seminggu cuti pun tak cukup lagik. Keje dah la melambak, lagi nak demand cuti lebih. Haha. Hari ni, even dah terpacak depan pc kat ofis, kepala entah melayang ke mana. Nak kata semangat nak beraya lagi pun tak jugak. Malas nak keje kot. Heh, kalau tak keje, mana pulak nak cari fulus. Dah la sen makin sikit nih. Nak tak nak keje jugak la.

Lagipun, now dah masuk 1st phase new year. Kena la up sikit. At least, next year ada la benda2 yang besh utk dikenang. Hopefully, things will be ok2. Amin. Healing phase pun dah slightly over, alhamdulillah. No point nak fikir2 lagi. Yep, masa dah time... :)

At this age, kadang2 rasanya dah terlalu banyak kesedihan. Sampai satu stage, dah tak mampu nak sedih dah. Air mata pun dah faham time bila dia patut bertahan. And now, kalau boleh... I just wanna run as far as I wish, so that I can keep on breathing! Lari dan tinggalkan semua jauh2! Lari dan kejar something yang lebih pasti... :)

5 days to go...

Lama dah tak blog. Nak start pun macam blur. Heh. Banyak nak share actually. Tapi masa tak brapa nak ada. So, arini decide nak blog jugak. Tak kira. So, let the story begin...

5 hari lagi... Hohoho... it's approaching! Hmm, ni bukan menghitung hari nak raya okies. Tapi satu hari yang kadang2 sangat ditunggu2 and kadang2 pulak kalau boleh tak nak tunggu pun. Rasanya semua orang pun macam tu kot, I bet. Hari special yang membuatkan persepsi diri berubah. Kalau tak banyak, paling tidak mesti berubah sikit.

In my very own calendar, end of September happened to be my 'new year'. Jadi, biasanya masa tahun baru ni lah nak carry forward mana2 thingy yang tak score lagi. And, for sure ada add-on-thingy pulak yang jadi target untuk next year ahead. So far, ada few things yang still tak dapat accomplish. Macam encik boss selalu cakap, 'bola dah kat depan pintu gol tapi still tak dapat score'. Huhu. So, hopefully next year will be much much more better. Amin.

What's my age, again? Ahaks, purleeease don't ask. In fact, ramai yang kata macam budak sekolah yang baru nak seat for SPM. Hehe. (Thank you very much!) Kadang2 terfikir beruntung jugak bila fizikal kita dalam range 'comel2' jer. People tak dapat nak agak age yang sebenar. Awesome! Teringat tak lama dulu, A pernah tanya, "Which one do you prefer? Someone aged 30 but look 20, or someone aged 20 but look 30?" Hmm... susah jugak nak jawab tuh. Subjektif.

Since September last year, lots of thingy happened and of course, being treasured. Setiap apa yang jadi sama ada yang besh2 atau yang kureng besh, for sure melengkapkan perjalanan hidup kita. At least, menambah sikit warna dan menjadikan kisah kita lebih bermakna. Jadi, kenapa mesti lupa? Kan? Kan? :)

Hmm... macam banyak surprise lah last year (Eh, ye ker?). Apa jer yang hangat dan yang hangit sepanjang tahun lepas ek? Let me recall... Ahaks, kat bawah nih 10 things hangat dan hangit yang paling memberi kesan 'impak kuat' la kot... Takde ranking2. Belasah jer.

Best Surprised Ever (so far la kot, haha!)
September @ Intekma
**Hangat!**

Me with Idlan n cuzin, Naema
1st time raya as 'auntie' (haha!)

October @ Batu Pahat
**Hangat!**

Tak expect pun, tetiba kena panggil naik stage.
Best Student Japanese Course
December @ Grand Bluewave
**Hangat!**

Dang Suria invite jadi guest utk live show dia, WW.
January @ Studio Astro Awani
**Hangat!**

Show prep masa on-air with krew Sarapan Pagi
AC Mizal & Kieran
Shortlisted for 'Cari Ganti Hani @ ERA'
January @ Studio ERA, Bukit Jalil
**Paling hangat! :)**

Being cheated on our 4th year anniversary! Broken-hearted!
April @ Home
**Paling Hangit!**

Dah lama tak gi konsert (belasah jer!)
April @ Stadium Negara, KL
**Ok2 la**

10 years after school, kitorang gather balik!
May @ Uptown, Damansara
**Hangat!**

Nak release tension, sajer join trip bebudak ofis.
July @ Langkawi
**Hangat!**

On the way balik dari exhibition kat UPSI,
keta company pulak rosak kat tgh2 highway..huhu!
Dah la kena tow, kena tunggu lama la pulak!
July @ Kilometer brapa entah (heh!)
**Hangit!**

Ramadhan

Secara peribadi, bulan Ramadhan ni memang bulan yang sangat special. Kebetulan pulak kena dalam bulan *September. Mengsyahdukan jiwa pun ya jugak. Entahlah eh... bila bulan puasa ni, rasa macam sayu jer. Bukan sebab tak boleh nak makan tengah hari ya. Heh. Tapi mungkin sebab banyak kenangan yang syahdu2 (cess, semacam jer word nih...) kot. Kali ni, bertambah lagi satu kenangan yang kalau teringat tu rasa macam masuk habuk jer mata nih. Tapi takpelah. Terima jer dengan hati yang terbuka. Let it be.

Hmm, kejap jer dah 5 hari puasa. Ramadhan kali ni beza sikit la. Tapi besh jugak. Eh, lebih besh kot. Ya betul... lagi besh! Aktiviti shopping kat bazar memang for sure la kan. Mana besh kalau tak round bazar. Dah la kat Shah Alam ni sana sini ada bazar. Meriah tak hengat. Rasanya semua section ada kot. So, tiap2 hari kalau redah satu bazar lain2 section pun ok kot. Cukup sebulan, semua bazar dah pernah redah. Heh.

Watever it is, tu bukan main point nak sambut Ramadhan nih. Point paling penting, nak bersihkan jiwa yang kureng kilat tu. Word yang senang nak faham --> nak insaf. Bukanlah bulan lain tanak insaf. It just bila ada bulan camni, macam reminder la untuk yang terlupa. At least ada rasa nak jadi makhluk TUHAN yang lebih baik. Betul tak? Tapi tak tahulah eh, lain orang lain pulak missionnyer, aite? Hmm... tak kesahlah. Maybe ni cuma mission peribadi. Hopefully, Ramadhan kali ni lebih bermakna. Amin.

Okies, untuk korang yang tetiba terbaca entry nih, SELAMAT MENUNAIKAN IBADAH PUASA! Semoga amal ibadah kita diberkati oleh-NYA! Insya-ALLAH... (Err... tak brapa lambat sangat wish ni kan? Kan?)

*Kenapa dengan September? If nak tau, tunggu next entry eh... :)

Tanah Tumpah Darahku

Selamat Hari Kemerdekaan ke-51, Malaysia!

Snap2 Time!

Seperti biasa, few days before puasa, kitorang kat ofis nih akan posing2 sakan snap pic raya untuk web plus kad raya. Kira agenda ofis setiap tahunlah nih. Selain mendatangkan diri ke ofis pakai chanteq2 meletopss ala2 hari raya gitu, konsep potluck tetappp tak dilupakan. Hmm, menariks tuh - lepas penat posing2 kita makan2! I loikkee! :)

So, selepas ahli lembaga mesyuarat tingkap pakat2, diorang sebulat suara mengumumkan hari nih sebagai hari makan2 and posing2. Selalu mood tak berapa nak chill (--> monday blues!), tapi sebab pepagi dah nampak banyak food yang diorang ikhlas nak bawak, terus semangat jadi lain macam! (eh, ye ker?)

Sorang2 datang pakai baju letop2, lagi la tambah meriah kan. Makanan yang macam2 jenis pulak memang nampak sedapp tak hengat. Bila dah ramai yang sampai ofis, diorang pun split. Ada grup yang bz2 hidang2 makanan. Ada gak yang saja buat2 bz (sebenarnya nak ushar ada food besh ke tak.. haha!). Tapi takpelah, janji bz. Heh.

Ada grup pulak yang bz menganyam ketupat *reben. Diulangi, ketupat reben yer. Tapi ini serius beb, bukan buat ketupat ala2 dapat dosa tu eh, ni ikhlas punya keje. Ala, ketupat yang colorful untuk buat props tu jer la. Maka, terkeluar la skill2 yang dah lama tak dishow-off kan. Yelah kan, raya setahun sekali. So, anyam ketupat pun setahun sekali jer la kan. Hehe. Ada gak yang tak tau buat, tapi at last dapat jugak buat. Ni kira kes menuntut ilmu bersungguh2 la nih. Sambil tu, pasang lagu raya. Lagilah semangat kan. Hmm... meriah dan hebatt! :)

So, bila photographer yang ditunggu2 sampai, sesi posing2 pun bermula. Tak habis2 sengih. Penat gak la. Tapi tetapp enjoy. Selain snap2 yang official n exclusive tuh, ada gak kitorang sempat snap2 yang main2 konsep ala2 selamba rock jer tu kan. Jom tengok! Smile, u r on candid camera! ;p

p/s: *reben adalah sebutan orang desa seperti saya yang sama jer maksudnya dengan 'ribbon' iaitu sebutan bagi mereka yang rasa mereka urban. Tq.

The Making of 'Ketupat Reben'

Setting2 tempat nak posing

Snap2 konsep sesuka hati

Editor2 yang suka posing!

Candid masa reramai.. happening!

Makan2 time!

Sopan gitu.. chewahh!

Konsep cermin tetapp di hatiku! :)

20.08

Awan...
Kalau dapat kucapai, maka saktilah hamba!

Hmm... hensem kan? Kan? Kan? Bila tengok cover novel HIJAB SANG PENCINTA nih, rasa macam nak jadi watak Haryani jer. Kalaulah jasad dah ditiupkan nyawa masa kurun ke-15 tu, sure Sunan menjadi jejaka pujaanku (wahhh, obses pulak tetiba). Biasalah, perempuan kan emosi. Heh.

Novel nih dah pun selamat dilancarkan petang tadi kat Singgahsana, PJ. Alhamdulillah. Launching kali nih disempurnakan oleh Puan Ziela Jalil. Actually, ada 2 title lagi yang dah terbit before nih. So, kira trilogi la... Yang first, BAGAIKAN PUTERI. Second, CINTA SANG RATU. So, sesapa yang memang follow cerita epik thriller konsep ala2 PGL nih, officially dah boleh la cari novel yang ketiga ni kat bookstore. Tak tipu beb, follower cerita ni memang berjuta2 lemon ramainya.

Personally, takdelah suka baca novel sangat. Tapi karya2 novelis nih lain sikit drpd novel2 cintan cintun. Tak caya, trylah baca. Imagination dia meletopss! I loikkee!

Overall, penat sikit tapi tetappp meriah. Alaf, korang memang happening lah! :)

Trilogi Bagaikan Puteri
karya Ramlee Awang Murshid

Suka sangat cover nih!

**Pencarian Laksamana Sunan versi milenium kini bermula! Eh, perlu ker? Hmm... :)

Gonna Mish Ya!

My lovely Sis Warda is going to leave us, today. Huhu. So sad till I can't say a word during the farewell. Really hope this is not for real. Well, you know the feeling, aite?

Sooner or later, I'm gonna mish ya, sis! Love ya, xoxo! :)

08.08.08

Kelip2

Ahad lepas, finally, dapat gak pegi tengok kelip2. Lama dah teringin nak tengok kelip2 tu since nampak dalam ad kat tv. Iklan TNB kot, kalau tak silap la. Hehe. Dulu, ada 'orang' janji nak bawak pegi tengok, tapi sampai sudah tak pegi2. Heh. Biasa la, konsep janji palsu memang cenggitu. So, maafkan jer la 'orang' tu. Haha.

Tapi sayang, tak dapat nak capture pic kelip2 yang comel tu. Masa dalam bot tu, kena remain senyap and gelap. Tanak kacau kelip2 tu la konon. Tu yang tak boleh nak guna flash kamera. Tapi, memang terpegun sangat. Indahnya ciptaan ALLAH. Tak tergambar dengan kata2. Memang cantik sangat. Selama kurang lebih 40 minit atas bot tu, dalam hati ni tak sudah2 memuji. Kagum. Rasa macam fairy tale. Subhanallah.

Petang tu sebelum pegi tengok kelip2 kat Bukit Belimbing, sempat jalan2 kat Bukit Melawati. Kat situ banyak sangat monyet. So, bagi monyet2 tu makan biskut. Sangat greedy ok. Yang kat tangan tak habis makan lagi, dah rampas yang lain. Pastu sangat selfish. Kalau boleh dia jer yang dapat biskut tu. Tak peduli member2 yang lain. Berebut tak hengat. Haha. Tengok kerenah monyet2 tu, teringat kat 'seseorang' nih. Tamak dan tak sabar. Semua perempuan kalau boleh dia nak. Dah ada gf pun, still flirt2 kat belakang. Tak ke sama perangai tu? Tamak kan? *wink*

Actually weekend tu sajer ikut Kak Molee balik kampung dia kat Kuala Selangor. Tu yang terjebak pegi tempat2 bersejarah tu. Macam rombongan masa sekolah pulak rasanya. Haha. So, nak thanks kat Kak Molee and family sbb menaja penginapan. Hehe. Makcik masak memang besh! Pakcik pulak sporting habis. Rania pun comel2 jer. Pokok ceri kat depan umah tu pun besh. Haha. Terima kasih daun keladi. Enjoy sangat.

Too Fast?

Tak tau la napa lately nih rasa macam tired sgt. Then, rasa macam masa tu terlalu cepat and tak daya nak kejar. Huhu. Kejap jer dah August. September. October. Err, too fast aite? The 'best' part is... i'm not getting any younger! Yep, that's for sure. Gosh, sounds scary lah!

And, why people keep asking me bout 'that thingy'? Soooo sick of it! Heh.

Hey people, look at me - I'm happy! And plus, no regrets! Chill.

Let's Play!

Mummy&Son @ JB Flora Fest

Gotcha!

Run Idlan Run!

Caught In The Act!

Tired Oledi!

Playtime With Idlan

Hari ni chill2 dengan Ariff Idlan since pagi. Penat tak hengat. Bagi can la Idlan buli auntie. Nasib comelll... terus hilang penat. Hehe.

Gud Morning Cutie!

Beg auntie pun Idlan tolong kemas yer!

Barney's Biggest Fan!

Sleep2 pun cute!